What the hell is wrong with me?
These last too days I’ve been perfectly fine one minute and the next my whole body just wants to shout at folk to bugger off and leave me along. Findlay was munching his way through the bag of prawn crackers tonight which managed to royally piss me off as I hadn’t even had one and he was 3/4 of the way through with no hint of stopping. Now I had made no attempt at eating any and to be honest I’d ate that much that I probably wouldn’t have anyway. But it was enough to get me pissed off. Simple things that I don’t mind doing like getting folk drinks etc when I’m sorting dinner out tonight completely threw me. I was seething about that despite being completely fine about doing it. Its nothing anyone is doing or saying thats causing it but it seems to be manifesting itself around things people do or say.
This ain’t healthy
The thing is i don’t get angry and shout or anything I just get really ratty. Which doesn’t make it any better. I virtually picked a fight with Vonnie today over money for no other reason than I felt I could win a fight for a change. I’d spent all day having to bow to the bosses wishes or take a hit on the chin to save hassle at work and the first time I thought I might come out on top I went for it.
Whenever it happens it’ll pass and immediately I’ll feel like shit because of it then the cycle starts all over again. I can’t even really blame lack of sleep either as to be honest I’m sleeping not hat bad at the moment.