Purification. I’m going through this in my own way at the moment.

When I found out that I was dyslexic a lot of things in my life started to make sense. My atrocious short term memory, my inability to distinguish between general background noise and someone I should be listening to without real concentration and my reliance on routine.

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The later ‘symptom’ is where I’m going through my changes. My usual routine depends on the weekday but most week days are very similar but they are all very intensive first thing in the morning and last thing at night with the office work in the middle. When I spent my months off work sick over the last two years I was lost. If my daily plans change at the last minute I just can’t deal with it and unless I actually have plans I struggle to get through that time.

With my very recent change in employment I now have 8 hours every day where I have no routine. I need to cut back everything I do to the very basics and start to rebuild my routine. I can’t just change it overnight either. With my short term memory problems if I change it one day I need to make sure that the next I do it exactly the same way otherwise I’ll just forget it completely the day after that. It’s a long process but one I need to start now. You just have to ask Vonnie how I react to plans changing and you’ll find out the mess I get into.

Without a set routine for my day I just feel like I spend the time procrastinating. Holiday times are the worst for me as I just can’t deal with not knowing what I’m doing and when I’m doing it. Currently my sleeping patterns completely shot to pieces and with all the visits to family over the Christmas period I don’t think I’ve managed to get a single thing I’ve planned to do started never mind finished.

The new routine starts on Monday. Lets see how long it takes to actually become a routine and not just another day where I need to check a bunch of things off on a list so that I don’t forget to do them.

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