For the last three or four years we have been aiming high with our lives and getting nowhere with it. Neither my wife nor I are or were doing the work that we want to be doing. We aren’t living where we want to be living. We aren’t existing as we want to exist.

It’s easy to say we are fed up working for ‘the man’. We want to do work that we’ll love. We want to live in a place where we can open the back door and let the kids run wild in acres of land without worrying about them. We want that hippy ideal of being happy and making the world a better place for us being there. We’ve looked into emigrating and into moving into the countryside.  It’s why I wanted to go to the Agricultural College. Vonnie worked hard when she was at Who Cares Scotland and had the chance to apply for a fantastic post up in Inverness which would have meant moving the entire family up there. We barely took a second to think it over before jumping at the chance.

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We keep our own chickens to not only give us eggs for our occasional fry ups and cakes but to teach our kids about the cycle of life. We try to grow our own vegetables because we’re very concious about the impact carbon emissions have on the planet. We stand up for the causes we believe in and try to help others understand why we believe in what we do.

But we are struggling to get to where we want to be.

We’ve been trying to get our ‘shop’ set up for more than a year now. By we I of course mean Vonnie by the way. The thing is in order for me to get behind all this I had to take that step of redundancy. I need to believe that we can do this but i needed to take that jump. You cannot gain anything without there being the chance of losing something. It’s a mind set change. We’ve played about with this for years but now it’s time to get stuck in and get us to where we want to be.

I’ve got a lot to get my head round and learn in a short period of time. First off tomorrow is to find a good driving instructor that can give me some intensive lessons. Then it’s coffee with a friend and hopefully getting some work done around the house to make working form home until the premises are signed for a lot easier.