I’m feeling really anxious today and I don’t know why. Over the weekend the dark mornings meant the kids slept longer which in turn meant i got to sleep longer. I think that extra sleep has totally messed with my bodies routine.

To quote one of my favourite songs…”I can’t get no sleep”

I don’t know wether its the stresses involved with the christening, a carry over form the pericarditis or a combination of both. I was up at about 5am with the dog again yesterday morning I think but after everyone was out to work/school/nursery I managed to sleep through until about 1pm. I felt great but Barry had been calling all morning and ended up coming over to check I was OK. I’d went straight into the shower after waking up and the phones were downstairs so I didn’t have a clue.

Skip to last night and I was as wide awake as I’d ever been I think and I finally managed to force myself to go to sleep at some point around 1am. Up again at 6am this morning and despite getting a few more hours again once everyone was away I’m like a zombie. I sat down on the couch for 5 minutes about an hour ago to check something on my mobile phone and the next thing I remember is the house phone ringing and I was lying on the couch.  Now I’m up again I still shattered but I know I won’t be able to sleep if I was to try.

It’s not insomnia its just my body recovering. I just wish I knew what exactly from so I’d have a clue how long it’s going to last.